Perfection

Well it is just 63 days till Liam's Due Date! How exciting, just a little over two months away. Keith and I are just in awe of our journey this far. This time last year we were trying to save and educate ourselves the best way we knew how, by asking questions, reading, and looking at different agencies. Our families and extended support group of loving friends seem just as anxious as we are. They ask how we are doing and if there is anything new. I just tell them no news is generally good news. There doesn't seem like there is much going on, but as we steadily get closer to the due date there will be more doctor visits and we hope more updates.

This morning as Keith ate his breakfast we stood in the kitchen just chatting, one of my favorite parts of the day, talking about random stuff and of course the talk always goes to Liam. I told Keith, "I feel like Liam knows me, like he knows you and I are waiting to come to him. I suppose that is just wishful thinking, but you never know." Keith just smiled an nodded. I still think he knows. I have reached a point where in my life I thought that I was fully in charge of everything, every decision, every action; but now I see that I've not been controlling anything. It's just to perfect of a journey. To many moments and choices lining up for me to have planned it all. I am good at planning things. But this...this is truly perfection. The ups and the downs have been a whirlwind of good lessons, hardships that have been needed, and so worthwhile. God is truly in control of my life and this journey, and even though that doubt, worry, or maybe it is my continence that keeps telling me there is always a possibility of things not working out. My heart keeps saying it's to perfect to not work out. I just have to trust God. Trust and pray diligently. I would and could never plan this journey, but I am so glad we are on it!