Like any gift one has to be willing to accept the gift to benefit from it. Though as one of the members pointed out, it is not necessarily a choice in every instance, sometimes it is just a strong guiding feeling; but you do have to choose if you will follow it or not. Sometimes, at least for me, it is harder to accept these particular gifts and not lead with my own imperfect brain and logic. Studying History has taught me how logical our world is and at times how irrational and fruitless it can be too. For me I rather let my heart lead the way, but at times things seem to heart breaking or difficult to bare that all I want to do is think my way through. Though using your brain is always a good thing, sometimes you just have to have faith that it will all work it self out, especially in those insistence where you have no control at all.
With our adoption we have done everything we can to facilitate the process and preparation for our baby, but then we get to a point where everything is done or in the works, and it is time to just reflect, pray, and have faith that God is in control. Oh how I struggle with this part of the process. I am not very good at sitting still and waiting. I like to prepare, research, learn more, dive into something new, the waiting is perhaps the worse part the process.
Nevertheless, we are waiting, hoping, praying, and having faith that it will all work out very soon.
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith, But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
~T.S. Eliot
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